Thankful

Thursday and Friday were up and down. My side effects seem to be rather bipolar and swing from feeling pretty good to just plain garbage. So far, I’ve had a number of different things happening, none of them horrible. If things stay this way throughout treatment, I will be one of the “lucky” ones. Though I’m already weary of the sitting and feeling lousy, I’m not horribly ill like so many people with chemotherapy. I’m so grateful and aware of how much worse things could be. God is good.

Today is Thanksgiving for my family. We are a big crew, and since some are traveling over the actual holiday, we scheduled for today. I’m so glad we did, as it looks like Thursdays will be one of my rougher days. I am sad that one of our daughters and her baby are sick, so they won’t be able to come. We will miss them.

Thanksgiving shouldn’t be something we only do once a year, when an over commercialized holiday prompts us. It should be daily. Thankfulness is something I strive for in my life. I believe it’s a source of joy that keeps me thinking about the blessings rather than focusing on what I am discontent with in my life. I often lose sight of the blessings and have to be deliberate about giving thanks. Here are a few things on my list today:

Today, I’m thankful for a small, colorless bruise that led to the early detection of my breast cancer.

I’m thankful for advanced medicine and the blessing of health care.

I’m thankful for an amazing husband, who walks this road with me. If I have cancer, we have cancer.

I’m thankful for the best kids any mom could ask for. They love me and care for me so well.

I’m thankful for my parents. They have their own daily struggles, yet they walk beside me and care for me. Most of all, they pray.

I’m thankful that God has given me so many friends and other family members to encourage me, send cards, drive me to appointments, and just check in.

Most of all, I am thankful for the God who orchestrates all these things. None of these is in place by happenstance. Every single tiny detail of my life is coordinated and created for my good and His glory. I am thankful.