Every week seems to bring something new. This week, I have been struggling with hyperactivity. The night before chemo, I had severe nausea and took meds for it right before bed. I did not realize insomnia is a side effect of that drug. I got a couple hours sleep and then had the long chemo day.
At chemo, they give me four different pre-meds to counteract the effects of the actual chemotherapy medication. One of those is a steroid, which can also cause insomnia, plus hyperactivity. Stack this on top of a night of little sleep and a long day of activity and, well, I’ve been a bit of a mess.
The up side of the hyperactivity is that I’ve been more active and productive in the last day and a half than I’ve been in months. The down side to that is that a crash is coming. At the very least, my life lately is full of variety.
I did sleep very well last night, which is a grand blessing. I am more mentally alert today, and that helps everything. Despite my increased activity yesterday, my house is a disaster to top all disasters. My brain wants desperately to clean it, but I also have a couple errands to run today and I know my energy is needed there instead.
With limited energy, everything is a choice. I choose where my energy would be best spent, and pray that I have enough of it to complete the task.
How thankful I am that my Creator doesn’t function that way. He doesn’t pick and choose which things best deserve his limited power and attention. He is all-powerful, all-knowing, and 100% available for every minute thing. He makes all things new.
And he who was seated on the throne said “Behold I am making all things new.” Also he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” Revelation 21:5 ESV