Going Through the Motions

Today is a pretty big day, at least in my mind. I am being sedated so they can place my port for chemotherapy. I don’t like procedures like this. They make me nervous. For the medical staff, this is absolutely routine. For me, not so much.

I went to bed a little earlier than usual and was planning on a good night’s rest. I slept all night, but when I woke up I saw that my CPAP had only worked for the first 45 minutes of the night. I couldn’t believe I had worn that dumb thing all night for nothing.

Consequently, I am very tired this morning and not mentally or physically rested for this day. I thought the CPAP would help me, but I ended up just going through the motions. It was more of a hassle than anything.

As is usual, God used this little thing to knock on my head and get my attention.

I rely every day on the saving grace of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I know a big day is coming when He will collect all those who are His own and take them to Heaven for eternity. I am His. I will go.

In the meantime, though, is my faith vibrant and bringing life to myself and those around me, or is it more trouble than it’s worth? Am I seeking Him daily and being energized and equipped, or do I check the boxes and bide my time until He comes again?

When people look at me, do they see a good person who is faithful to her church and a good friend? Or do they look at me and see Him? I dearly hope it’s the latter. As Grandma Dot used to say “Any good you see in me is Jesus.”

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perfectjourney19

I'm a homeschool mom and the proud wife of a hard working farmer. We live in the sticks and drive 20 miles to a town of any size. I live to serve the One who saved my soul, and He daily loads me with blessings. I started this blog to share my journey through breast cancer. So far, I have only done a few warm up stretches, and I pray I will remain faithful and be an encouragement to others traveling this road with me. I know this journey will be rough, but I also know it will be perfect, because my God does all things well. I am not afraid.

3 thoughts on “Going Through the Motions”

  1. You are wonderful, seeing a lesson in every inconvenience! May the procedure go smoothly.
    LeAnne Hardy
    l eannehardy@gmail.com Website: http://www.leannehardy.net My blog: Times and Places
    On Tue, Nov 12, 2019 at 7:47 AM A Rough and Perfect Journey wrote:
    > perfectjourney19 posted: ” Today is a pretty big day, at least in my mind. > I am being sedated so they can place my port for chemotherapy. I don’t like > procedures like this. They make me nervous. For the medical staff, this is > absolutely routine. For me, not so much. I w” >

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